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tegurlah man, beritahulah pada man, speak out your mind and tell me wat i did wrong

Nurul Amira Ismail……

i’m truly devastated and pretty much a big looser. even i feel like giving up on myself, terlintas gak dlm kepala…..cepatkan ajalku.

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man akui man mmg sorg yg too dull and square and at then will result in boredom..

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tpi man masih percaya kurang2 i did something rite at times biar pun kecik bagi Nya tapi takkan benda tu tak dpt dijadikan penguat semangat n yakin yg man telah berubah. man makin rasa sedih bila man renung pada diri man, amat jarang sekali man mendapat acknowledgement dari Nya on anything that i did rite. Don’t i deserve for atleast a wish of thank you or even a smile would be enough if you can’t say it in words. but i seldom get such treatment from you and it makes me feels much lonely.
i’m feel i’m alone in this world, becoz Nya was my one n only inspiration and closes person i ever had in my life. i can still remember you as if you are here next to me :(.

perkara yang sama pon terjadi pada Nya, tetapi man senantiasa beranggapan dan memberi ruang utk Nya berubah. Man tak pernah memarahi Nya, man tak pernah menyakiti hati Nya biarpun kadang kala perkara tu tampak berat bagi seseorang. Man seorang yg penyabar and considerate. but atleast can you gives

us a chances to correct our mistakes.. it is not juz for you. It is for you and me.

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i ain’t perfect Nya but atleast try bagi tau man what is wrong with me. correct me, ckp lah berulang2 kali. I need the scolding and lecturing. we both have a communication problem, why can we focus on that and improve ourselves.
man always try to change bit by bit, biarpun sikit tpi atleast i did. plz tell me wat that you don’t like about me. list out if you must, paste it somewhere. man tak larat nak menangis, sebak ati ni, lagi sakit bila man duk bersendirian. Nya selalu berkata if I tell you about everything then I’m moulding me into someone I’m not.

Unfortunately if Nya fikir cam tu you are wrong Nya. but actually you are exhorting me for all the things that i’ve inevitably done wrongly. Berulang kali man katakan pada Nya tpi sayang jarang sekali Nya dpt
speak out. I wish you would have told me and I always hope for that
time to come.

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Man wish that we both need to tegur and speak our mind…. so atleast we know what our partners want. Man kecewa Nya, kecewa ngan diri man sendiri sbb man tak dpt benda tu dari Nya. Nya selalu keep it to urself everything dari semua yg tak puas ati sampai sekarang. At the end of the day… man nak tau the bad side of me that mmg i should not do. kalau Nya tak tegur man sampai mati man pon tak tau…

we must be really positif on dat..sbb xsume owg bule time tegoran..Nya alway says u gave a lot of clues and hints. what are all clues and hints means Nya if compare to words and advice. Man always wish to hear you say something, kalau man bwat something good atleast acknowledge it. kalau Nya tak suka bagi tau lah man, u’ve known me so very long. Why do you still have such hesitation.

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smp skg man masih mencari Nya, mencari and always in a state of uncertainty ….wondering wat i did wrong and also wat i did right.

~ by deraman on May 30, 2008.

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